It’s been a minute. A tough, grueling, painful, joyous, hopeful, tearing 6 months at the least of a minute. My mother passed away. Unexpectedly. Shockingly. Forever ago. And yesterday. In early June, just before my 40th birthday, we spent a love-filled, tear-stained week walking her home to be with Jesus. In that we hold hope….
On Sitting With Death…
I sit comfortably with death. I’ve been with loved ones the days of their last breaths. I’ve watched family & friends enter the life beyond, certain of where they’re going. I’ve sat with those, whose greatest fear of being forgotten lingered. I’ve seen peace, I’ve watched angst. It’s been ok and it’s been riddled with…
On Creativity & Imagination…
Stretch your creativity muscles often, Exercise your imagination frequently Hold the spaces to let your mind wander, Adventure and explore the places your thoughts take you. Every moment an opportunity to dream, Every field a story that just needs to be seen. Easy and abundant are the opportunities for distraction, But remain focused on living…
On Distractions…
Many are the distractions of the world. To keep us busy & sick & subdued & submissive & apathetic. Illusions of connections, amid seas of lonely, sick & suffering souls. Illusions of happiness, satisfaction, joy yet simply shallow, lacking full depth. Comparison robs & steals us of our life in our lives. How we spend our…
On Gibran on Love…
I’ve been finding myself sitting in thought & reflections & contemplations of love often lately. It wasn’t an intentional thing, but something that just’s kinda been happening to me. I didn’t plan it, and it’s weird and it’s outside my comfort and I don’t know how to navigate it and I don’t know what box…
On weather…
There’s a line I really like from a silly movie I’ve watched way too many times to admit, which is Paul Rudd saying ‘oh, the weather outside is weather’ to the tune of Let it Snow. I find it hilarious so I say it often, and if people know what I’m talking about, they get…
On the Easy Yoke…
Are you tired? Are you sick of this heavy world’s beating? Do you feel overwhelmed and disheartened? Take heart, there is rest. 29 Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me; for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For My yoke is easy and…
On new metrics
A while back, I gave up living life the only way I knew how. The way I knew served me, then it served me painfully, then it didn’t serve me at all. Only through my desert period – the wandering in the wilderness – have I come to know a new journey. I love the second question…
On Crowds
The more and more my journey turns inward, the less and less comfortable I become with the external, the people, the noise, the distractions. I seek a quiet life of simplicity & gratitude, peace & presence. I’m not interested in the speed and pace of daily life living in a (rapidly) growing Pacific Northwest urban…
Heading off, going rogue, shutting it all down…
It’s nearing my birthday, so I’m indulging myself a little bit. In our busy-busy, always-on society, I’m shutting it down. I’m heading off to do something I’ve been wanting to for a while – a multi-day digital detox, a technology cleanse – a rebooting of sorts. No social media, no email, no computers. I’ve decided…
On Jobs & Work…
As I approach one year since I quit my job, it’s becoming a new normal…but my new normal seems so foreign in this world we live in. I sometimes still search for jobs, just to see what’s out there. I search Craigslist & Macslist & LinkedIn & Remote.co & Remoteok.io & Indeed for keywords like “wilderness” and…
A Letter To the Lost
I think about you as we walk. Sometimes you don’t even seem real. During others, my heart hurts for you. For your families. For your loved ones. I wonder what happened. My mind creates the scenarios. I wonder how scared you are – or were. If it’s been a bit and your recovery is our…
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